blame it on the cold

hello! i am back from a little blogging break. 

it wasn't planned for but it has been nice not opening my laptop

for a couple of weeks. the need to express and create hasn't been 

as strong lately but as beth says, it comes and goes in waves.

a good word to describe how i've been feeling is 'lull'.

(a temporary interval of quiet or lack of activity)

i've still been doing things... breakfast, morning tea, 

brunch, dinners, drinks and outings here and there, 

but inside i am feeling very low on energy and motivation. 

getting out of bed in the morning is a struggle and i 

think to myself 'do i really have to go to work 

today, and every other day for the rest of my life?'

it's like i've just realised that i have a job to go to,

even though i've been doing it for forever now.

i know i'm being dramatic, something i am highly

skilled at, but i honestly think i have the winter blues. 

i find myself wishing i was a uni student with little 

responsibilities so that i could skip classes, sleep in, 

not get dressed and spend all day watching day time tv.

ridiculous and unsustainable, but if i had three wishes...  

maybe this sudden urge can be blamed (another thing

i'm good at, finding something to blame!) on living back in 

leafy paddington (just one street from my first house here) 

where i spent a great deal of time doing exactly that!

who knows, but whatever it is, i hope it goes away soon. 

i have big plans for happiness in my new home and

my lull seems to be getting in the way of that. 

(ok, i've thought about it more, 

i officially blame the cold weather...

lacking motivation is in no way my own issues)